i cannot BELIEVE how much more significant the final scene in tdw is after having watched that deleted scene. yeah, i know loki wouldn’t have been able to lift it and the jig would have been up, but thor is literally handing him the one thing he wants most in this world and loki tells him to keep it, he’s worthy and he’s proud of him and my god i just have so many brodinson feelings rn
But Mjölnir isn’t the one thing Loki wants most in the world. Nor is it ‘being King’. Loki was King, legitimately, in ‘Thor’, and what does he fantasize over in the ‘fur scene’? Not ‘being King’not ‘sitting on the Throne’, but being adored and respected by Asgard, having the people cheer him as they did for Thor but not for him, having Sif and the Four loyally and respectfully bow to him, as they did for Thor but not for him.
Lifting Mjölnir is not about having Mjölnir but being able to lift it, ie: ‘being worthy’. Of course, ‘being worthy to lift Mjölnir’ has nothing to do with true inner worth (as we would measure it), or else Thor and Odin would not been able to lift her (being tamtrum-throwing mass-murderders both), but it is the embodiment of what Loki has been taunted with all his long life and never got: the approval and ‘love’ of Odin.
That’s the tragedy of Loki: no matter how much he tries to distance himself from Odin, he was raised to value Odin’s approval and he will never get it. Because Loki is the Jew who was adopted and raised by Adolf Hitler, the African-American who was adopted and raised by the leader of the Ku Klux Klan. Raised to their ideals and values, hating himself for what he is, wanting to be what he was raised to love but knowing that no matter how hard he tries he will never obtain it, for the simple reason that he was born Jotun. The very fact that a Jotun has dared to try to imitate the deeds of ‘his betters’ is apparantly reason for affront, as nothing Loki does is even half as bad as the things that Odin or Thor do to great acclaim. When Loki attempts to do (without succeeding, I might add) the same things to the Jotnar and Midgardians as Odin or Thor did to the Jotnar, to Dark Elves or to ‘rebels’, both Odin and Thor act shocked; apparantly it’s not just about who does the deed, but also to whom it is done. A Midgardian and Aesir life is apparantly worth infinately more than a Jotun or a ‘creature’, no matter how sentient.
This is exactly the kind of meta that goes on in my head when it comes to Loki. It is truly what his tragedy is-raised by a tyrant, made to hate his own race, never got the said tyrant’s approval… and lastly, he craves respect, never gets that either.
Aaaand my dam of Loki feels bursts…
It’s fascinating the change in expressions from the two gifs. In the first one he’s determined and sets out to help Thor.
In the second, he realizes that his act of heroism didn’t matter: Kursed lived. Then there’s that look of resignation, bordering on despair, as he realizes what’s coming next.
Loki knows he’s going to die. Just when he made the choice to fight to live (you can see when Thor saves him from that mini void explosion that he’s started hoping -even wanting- to live through this) it’s gone.Yes. This.
It’s kind of even worse when you consider that Thor saved him from death so that he could die to save Thor. You can totally see Loki playing it that way in his head. He’s always secondary to Thor. Even when it’s his own choice, he makes it that way. Always.
we were raised together, we played together, we fought together, do you remember none of that?
Slutty Yorick 